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[Jun. 15th, 2006|06:28 pm] |
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We're back together.
my moms wedding is on saturday, im really really excited.
People need to grow up and stop being bitches.
That'd probably be sweet,
but i don't have to put up with it much longer.
werd |
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| Senses Fail - Save Yourself |
[Jun. 11th, 2006|02:47 pm] |
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turn out the light
just say goodnight to yourself
may i remind you
when you find you all alone's when
you, you've got to be strong
thats when they call you
in the night
he's got your picture in his mind
he's got your number
on a paper
at his disposal anytime
Is it really true
could you save yourself
for someone who, could love you for you
so many times we just give it away
to someone who, someone who
you met in a bar
the back of a car
and for a moment you felt important
but not in your heart
cause my self esteem
its been low
go ahead and count
its been lower than low
i know the feeling
of it stealing life out from under me
Cause i wanna learn
how you save yourself
for someone who could love you for you
so many times we just give it away
to someone who couldnt even remember your name
could you save yourself for someone who
loves you for you, and loves me for me
give it away to someone who
someone who'd
cherish your name
Cause i wanna learn
if you'd save yourself
for someone who loves you for you
and loves me for me
give it away to someone who, someone who'd
cherish your name |
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[Jun. 6th, 2006|07:57 pm] |
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So there is no way now that i cannot get over riley. Actually, im moving quite quickly. He decided to have sex with some other girl, and then be a total asshole to me when i TRIED to talk to him, so why exactly would i feel the need to want to be friends with someone like that?, well i don't anymore. and thats that. Im more excited now for the future, fuck the past 8 months. It wasnt shit but if i would have known the outcome...i would have done it differently. I tried, and i didnt succeed, so im the bigger dood. Im excited for friday because im hanging out with alyscia and willem, probably 2 of my favourite people.
yesss
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| Here i am. |
[Jun. 5th, 2006|08:13 pm] |
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So monday, another day. I won't lie. I was quite upset all day today. I heard someone at some point talking about soul mates and talking about how lame it was, quite honestly I don't find it lame at all, i don't now what they were refering to, and i hope it wasnt me (cause thats rude) but i found it quite redundant. He talked to me today, after school on the bus and at pope, it was really nice. I still don't know how this will pan out, and honestly im still really upset about it. I wish that life had something set for you, and their were no detours. It may be boring, but then you'd always be happy. I have no idea whats in store for me tomorrow, or the day after, or in a month or a year. I hope that it goes the way that i want it to, but thats only wishful thinking. I have amazing friends that are doing everything they can to help me, but telling me to get over it, and telling me im going to get over it just makes me more sad. I don't want to get over it. Love is love rye said once to Russell, and i've kept that in mind. If love is love then why do you get rid of it? If love is love then why second guess it? If love is love...then why not be involved? I think about a lot of things, way to much and sometimes they start to not make much sense. I spend the weekend miserable because i don't know whats going on in his head, and i spend today clearly upset because yet again i don't know what is going through his head. I really wish things would go back. I could LIVE with being friends. But at this point, just barely. I love who i am with him, i love who i've become because of him. I love it all, and he's to give credit too. Something like that cant just be sent to the trash, if that was the way love worked then no one would be happy, because once you've found love, no matter how intense, you can never find love like it again, there might be something about someone that you just wont find in anyone else. When you think someone is perfect, and when you hurt when they hurt and when you feel what they feel, thats true love people. I don't care if you disagree with me, but that is true love. You feel the emotion in the relationship between one another. You can feel the pain, and the happiness. You feel it all...I FEEL IT ALL. fuck, i get the worst feeling that people feel the need to talk about this. Who I won't even begin to explain. But fuck right off. I hung out with russell and andy tonight, it was nice. Russ knew i'd only sit at home and be a bitch to myself so it was pretty decent. I could go for a huge giant hug right now, not from anyone in particular **siiighhh** |
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